Perseverance – Don’t quit until the blessing. That was the sermon today at church. I took Cali with me so she could go to the new Sunday school class, which is actually taught by a girl that Samantha works with at the restaurant. I still felt my usual anxieties, and for good reasons. Samm isn’t happy. Like at all. Not with me. Not with our daughter. Apparently, not with anything at all. I have a sinking feeling about why. When you have that much inner turmoil in your life because of the choices tearing at your soul, its hard to find peace. I feel like at this point, given the exhaustive efforts on my behalf, this is something that she will have to sort through. I don’t want it to be alone. Perhaps that is the only solution though. I never gave up on her. I never lost hope in regards to our marriage. I never lost sight of the beautiful, wonderful girl that I fell in love with. She made me a better man, and no matter what depths we have to dive through, I won’t just abandon her. I may have to take a step back for my own well being, and most of all, for my daughter’s well being.