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Soul Side Journey

A Path Through Turbulent Times

Day 692: Grace

May 7, 2015 • NoleCore •

Read the story of my skin
Tell me more about the man I should have been
I’ll be the martyr…Falling from his grace again

5 years today since that first date. I am going to open up to you about something I have never told anyone. The person Samantha cheated on me with was the drummer in an old metal band called Prong. His name is Alexei Rodriguez. I think he is 42 years old now. We went to see them open up for Clutch in Pensacola. Then I took her on a work trip with me to Savannah Georgia and they were opening up for COC while we were there. I saw her stop him after their set and give him a hug. I didn’t think anything of it, I am a very trusting person. Or at least I was back then.

The next month I happened to see her phone screen while we were watching TV, I was leaning my head on her shoulder. I never looked at her phone. Ever. But seeing the name alexei was strange because I had never heard of this person and the content of the text that popped up was confusing. She told me it was a girl she had known before she met me that liked the same music as me. I believed her for about 3 months that this was a girl. Then one day at Starbucks she left her phone on the table and it went off. Again, strange text message and this time it was kind of sexual. I scrolled through the messages and sure enough it was definitely not a girl and they were talking about sex and how attractive she thought he was. She was also telling him music related stories that either happened to me in real life, or that I had told her. I still didn’t know how she knew this person though. I went on Facebook and figured it out by looking at the comments written on random posts and photos and then googling the name. I think you know the rest of what happened, we separated after she threw a drink on my face at AJs then beat the hell out of me when we got home and destroyed my office. The police were called, saw all the marks on me, and suggested I go stay at my mothers.

We decided that I would stay at my moms while she looked for a place to stay. We never once said we were getting a divorce, after that first week or so of being really emotional and upset. One day, Samm suggested to me that I go out of town to take some time for myself and to let things calm down. I told her that sounded like a good idea and the very next day, my friend Matt and I drove from Santa Rosa Beach to Alaska. We were gone 10 days. While I was gone, Samantha took the money my father had given her to live on while we separated, and bought a plane ticket for Alexei. He came down to Florida and stayed with her the entire time. She even got him a job where she was working at the Elephant Walk out in San Destin. I found all of this out after the Dax Rigg show when I saw her phone. I found out that she had paid for it and had this all planned out before we even separated by looking at her school email months later when she asked me to help her register for classes.

We were only apart two months at the time of the Dax Riggs show but when she got pilled out and was totally unconscious afterwards I saw her phone and looked at the texts. And the photos. I called the phone number, got the voice mail and demanded he stay away from my wife and that we were still married. And then he started texting me graphic details about how he had sex with my wife, and how much of an awful parent I was. This went on for months. All the while I saw Samantha almost every day and tried to do what I could to convince her to come home and stop this relationship with Alexei. I still helped her out financially. I paid her rent almost every month that she was at this other house. It was off Main Street in Destin and I still get a bad feeling when I drive past it. It got to the point where she didn’t even really even hide her communication with him right in front of my face. Texts were coming in constantly when she was with Cali and I. They were always the same stupid pointless conversations. It was like she dumbed herself down just to speak to this idiot. This consumed my life. I was constantly trying to see what was really going on. I can’t even imagine how much money and time I threw down the drain living like this. Most nights going to sleep alone in an empty house while she was going out after work and having an open relationship with another man. When I eventually met all her coworkers, I could tell they were pretty confused to see me and see how I still treated her with respect and love.

This went on until the middle of July, when I found out she was flying up to North Carolina to see him. I begged her not to go. Cried at her feet. She still took the rental car I had (she had totaled the new car that I bought her back on July 4th), and drove to New Orleans to get on a plane. She had some sort of final fear of throwing her marriage away, and when she got to North Carolina, called me crying. I got her a hotel and a flight home the next morning. She promised to never speak to him again and that this was over. Of course this was a lie. The texts from him came, taunting me with all of this, and ridiculing her. Pretty much saying what an awful girl she was and that he didn’t want her anyway. Meanwhile they started emailing each other again about a week later. She caught me looking at her phone reading an email, and beat me worse than ever before. Our entire master bedroom was destroyed. I bought her a brand new car the next day.


We got pregnant the next month before we went to Estonia. She knew I wanted a baby and said later it was the only way she thought she could get me to stay with her after everything that had happened. While we were in Tallinn, she started using Skype to contact Alexei. She was on a different flight home than me because I was staying longer to work at a coffee shop in Estonia for a few weeks. She forgot to log out of Skype on my laptop, so it showed their entire conversation as it happened in real time while she was in the airport. She hadn’t even gotten onto the plane before she was saying that she was in Europe with a friend and that she wanted to see him as soon as she got back home. I told her it was over when she got to the next airport, and of course she told me that since she was pregnant she would come after me. I flew home the next day and of course got texts from Alexei throwing everything in my face, including laughing about the thought that the baby was his.

We had a miscarriage on my birthday two months later. A week later, I found all of the old emails that proved she was having an affair this entire time, over a year ago and only a few months after we had our wedding and bought our brand new house. They were sexual and inappropriate from the very first day. And were constant the entire time, almost every single day. On my birthday, on Christmas while we were in California visiting family, on Valentines Day…nothing was sacred. The week after I found all of this out, she was diagnosed with cancer.

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She started the affair all over again when we got back from Iceland. She had relapsed, stolen money from me for pills before we left, and then spent a chunk of our time in Iceland going through awful withdrawals or totally drunk off vodka. I came home from work the first day back and picked up the iPad to look at photos, and of course their entire Skype conversation was on the screen. When I refused to say that I would give her another chance, she destroyed every single memento we had from our wedding. Everything. Finally, she picked up the poster that Cali and I made her using hundreds of photos of us as a family, shaped into a heart. I told her that if she destroyed that, I would call the police. The cops had been to our house 3 times prior for domestic violence calls. All 3 times they made me leave, even though she was the one who had hit me. So she got to spend the night in jail this time. I bailed her out the next day.

On August 17th, she got on a one way flight and left for good. I wish that was the end of it, but 9 confusing, convoluted months followed. Whether it was concerns for her health, my out of control drinking, or the painful shame of failing in a marriage, the end was hard to come about. It finally came to an end 2 months after I finally got sober. Almost 5 years exactly. I have tried to completely erase it from my everyday life. I want no reminder at all about any of this. I switched gyms since we met at golds, got tattoo cover ups, erased everything I possibly could.

Samantha, I forgive you. Alexei, I also forgive you as well. I don’t feel sorry for either of you. I just forgive you. Hating you would mean carrying a part of you and the memories with me, and I want neither. Forgiveness has led to total annihilation of something that ruined me for a very long time. A fresh start would not be possible  without this, and I learned that the hard way. Every life lesson and period of growth was not inspired by you at all. It was just a matter of survival. I wish no ill will towards what remains of your life, just that it doesn’t ever cross paths with my own.

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I learned a lot about myself those first few months, and it's still an ongoing experience every time I get to put on the uniform. I've been extremely fortunate to have had outstanding leadership every step of my journey so far, and every time I've needed help there's been someone to turn to for answers. 

I've said before that my goal for myself that I set while I was still a recruit, was to end up at an NSW command. That first time up in Little Creek was exhilarating despite me being nervous and unsure about what exactly my role was going to be. "I'm almost 40 and I'm still an E-3, what am I doing around all of these legit badasses?" No worry- I was welcome right from the start, and cant say how thankful I am for every opportunity that has come my way. I'll end this with an anecdote, and just say I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be. That first PT session, we did something called a "Murph". And as soon as I jumped and grabbed the pull up bar, I'm talking the exact second my hands touched the bar, "More Human Than Human" by White Zombie exploded through the gym speakers. I smiled as I pulled myself up to the bar. ⚓️

U.S. Navy Mass Communication Specialist 2nd Class Christopher Caravello, assigned to SEAL Team 18, holds his frocking letter Jan. 4, 2023, on Joint Expeditionary Base Little Creek–Fort Story (JEBLC-FS) in Virginia Beach, Virginia. Caravello was advanced to E-5 in December. (U.S. Navy photo by Mass Communication Specialist 3rd Class Riley Gasdia)

Today marks two years since I shipped out to bootcamp. That feels like a lifetime ago with how many life-changing events have happened since then. I'd gotten full custody of my daughter less than two weeks before I left home. It was unexpected, and happened so fast that I never really had everything sink in. It was full speed trying to get everything finalized and then, suddenly, it was time to leave. My parents were surprised I was still enlisting after finally getting my daughter, but I felt strongly about what I was doing. I'd sworn an oath, and that meant something. It was still the hardest thing I've ever had to do, saying goodbye to my wife and daughter so soon after we finally got to be a family.

I learned a lot about myself those first few months, and it's still an ongoing experience every time I get to put on the uniform. I've been extremely fortunate to have had outstanding leadership every step of my journey so far, and every time I've needed help there's been someone to turn to for answers.

I've said before that my goal for myself that I set while I was still a recruit, was to end up at an NSW command. That first time up in Little Creek was exhilarating despite me being nervous and unsure about what exactly my role was going to be. "I'm almost 40 and I'm still an E-3, what am I doing around all of these legit badasses?" No worry- I was welcome right from the start, and cant say how thankful I am for every opportunity that has come my way. I'll end this with an anecdote, and just say I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be. That first PT session, we did something called a "Murph". And as soon as I jumped and grabbed the pull up bar, I'm talking the exact second my hands touched the bar, "More Human Than Human" by White Zombie exploded through the gym speakers. I smiled as I pulled myself up to the bar. ⚓️
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(3)So as I sit here and acknowledge this day, I can smile knowing that I will go to bed tonight in the same house as ALL of my family, and wake up tomorrow one day closer to whatever adventure the universe has in store for me.

I didn't arrive here by having everything go right. In fact it went very, very wrong at times. I arrived here Because I finally made the decision to Change.

Photo by my good friend Brandon Stutzman @shotbystutz while we walked the Arizona Trail a week after I finished Moab, talking about the ideal lighting that evening and what drives and motivates us to be the best versions of ourselves.
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Today I am 8 years sober
(3)So as I sit here and acknowledge this day, I can smile knowing that I will go to bed tonight in the same house as ALL of my family, and wake up tomorrow one day closer to whatever adventure the universe has in store for me.

I didn't arrive here by having everything go right. In fact it went very, very wrong at times. I arrived here Because I finally made the decision to Change.

Photo by my good friend Brandon Stutzman @shotbystutz while we walked the Arizona Trail a week after I finished Moab, talking about the ideal lighting that evening and what drives and motivates us to be the best versions of ourselves.
#Sobriety #addiction
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Today I am 8 years sober
(2) It is like you are stuck. You do the same fucking thing no matter how counterintuitive, self-destructive, and hurtful to your loved ones it is, on repeat. Yes the locations change, the bars you frequent vary, the relationships collapse and reignite with a different cast, but the results don’t. ever.

Until one day it finally does.

One thing I am proud of and I will readily acknowledge as a reason I was able to get sober, is that I always told myself no matter how difficult this situation was, it wasn’t going to be permanent and it was not going to last forever. I spoke that into existence. I never said a single woe-is-me. I think that’s a big component in this. Accepting responsibility and always leaving the door open for optimism.

I am up to 155 pounds now (10 pounds heavier than when I finished Moab a few months ago!). I usually state my weight on these posts because of how gaunt I was during my first year of sobriety. I went through the awful withdrawals, got pretty sick, and also had my 2nd hernia surgery. I was in the 130s and looked like absolute shit. I feel really good at this weight.

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#Sobriety #addiction

Today I am 8 years sober
(2) It is like you are stuck. You do the same fucking thing no matter how counterintuitive, self-destructive, and hurtful to your loved ones it is, on repeat. Yes the locations change, the bars you frequent vary, the relationships collapse and reignite with a different cast, but the results don’t. ever.

Until one day it finally does.

One thing I am proud of and I will readily acknowledge as a reason I was able to get sober, is that I always told myself no matter how difficult this situation was, it wasn’t going to be permanent and it was not going to last forever. I spoke that into existence. I never said a single woe-is-me. I think that’s a big component in this. Accepting responsibility and always leaving the door open for optimism.

I am up to 155 pounds now (10 pounds heavier than when I finished Moab a few months ago!). I usually state my weight on these posts because of how gaunt I was during my first year of sobriety. I went through the awful withdrawals, got pretty sick, and also had my 2nd hernia surgery. I was in the 130s and looked like absolute shit. I feel really good at this weight.

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(1)As I looked down at my son this morning as I held him, the weight of those words were far more of an impact than when I have wrote them the seven years prior. I am a full-time father to two beautiful healthy children and have a wife who has stood by me and supported all of my goals and dreams. I am acutely aware that none of that would be the case if I had never made the decision to Change.

Sometimes people ask me how I knew that I had a problem and what it was like towards the end. My answer is that I never ever acknowledged that I had a problem until it was practically over, and that the end was the same as the beginning. I didn’t drink to drown anything out, it was something that I did almost every single day as routinely as getting out of bed and getting dressed. Good times, bad times, this didn’t matter. I was going to do it no matter what. When it all ended eight years ago, it was like a constricting snake finally had wound so tight around my throat that I had only two choices: to Change, or to die. 

That is a realization that only the recovering addict can describe in full. You simply don’t know how to describe it unless you have been forced to reconcile with that split fork in your life’s journey. Until that moment is upon you, no amount of AA, therapy, intervention, whatever you want to try and do to put a band-aid over this is going to work. Rock Bottom is a unique place that is decorated differently for every soul who finds themselves there. I appreciate the creative, beautiful moments portrayed on social media, I really do. I just think we should also talk openly about the other side of the coin, and that dialogue would if nothing else, let human beings know that they are not alone. Which is a bigger deal than most realize. “The darkness in me recognizes the darkness in you”.

I find it morbidly ironic that today is Groundhog Day. If I had a dollar for every time I sat in AA and heard the phrase, “the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result,” then I would have quite a few bucks in my pocket.
📷 |@shotbystutz
#Sobriety #addiction

Today I have been sober for 8 years.
(1)As I looked down at my son this morning as I held him, the weight of those words were far more of an impact than when I have wrote them the seven years prior. I am a full-time father to two beautiful healthy children and have a wife who has stood by me and supported all of my goals and dreams. I am acutely aware that none of that would be the case if I had never made the decision to Change.

Sometimes people ask me how I knew that I had a problem and what it was like towards the end. My answer is that I never ever acknowledged that I had a problem until it was practically over, and that the end was the same as the beginning. I didn’t drink to drown anything out, it was something that I did almost every single day as routinely as getting out of bed and getting dressed. Good times, bad times, this didn’t matter. I was going to do it no matter what. When it all ended eight years ago, it was like a constricting snake finally had wound so tight around my throat that I had only two choices: to Change, or to die.

That is a realization that only the recovering addict can describe in full. You simply don’t know how to describe it unless you have been forced to reconcile with that split fork in your life’s journey. Until that moment is upon you, no amount of AA, therapy, intervention, whatever you want to try and do to put a band-aid over this is going to work. Rock Bottom is a unique place that is decorated differently for every soul who finds themselves there. I appreciate the creative, beautiful moments portrayed on social media, I really do. I just think we should also talk openly about the other side of the coin, and that dialogue would if nothing else, let human beings know that they are not alone. Which is a bigger deal than most realize. “The darkness in me recognizes the darkness in you”.

I find it morbidly ironic that today is Groundhog Day. If I had a dollar for every time I sat in AA and heard the phrase, “the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result,” then I would have quite a few bucks in my pocket.
📷 |@shotbystutz
#Sobriety #addiction
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Getting to volunteer with Aaron this weekend reminded me about all of this. It's just in his nature to encourage and help others get onto the trails and explore their potential. Now as a forest ranger, he gets to protect and maintain this important part of our local community, a fitting profession for the @beardedjourneyrunner 🧙‍♂️

Florida Forest Service Forest Ranger Aaron Haugan watches runners depart the starting line of the Ellie Biscuit 20 mile trail run at the Eastern Lake trailhead Jan. 28, 2023 in Santa Rosa Beach, Florida. Haugan filled in as race director for the event that featured both 20 mile and 10 mile options.

I've known Aaron for five years now, since I moved back to Santa Rosa Beach. We met at a run club and instantly hit it off, which really helped me get back into running. I'd taken 14 months off from running (yes, you read that right!) and I was really struggling to get back into racing shape. It was brutally hard, and frustrating, but Aaron always kept encouraging me even when I couldn't go as far or as fast as he was planning on. I used to send him this meme of an energetic little kid dragging an old hefty dog to get his exercise on (I was the dumpy mutt in the picture).
Getting to volunteer with Aaron this weekend reminded me about all of this. It's just in his nature to encourage and help others get onto the trails and explore their potential. Now as a forest ranger, he gets to protect and maintain this important part of our local community, a fitting profession for the @beardedjourneyrunner 🧙‍♂️
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Ellie Biscuit 20 & 10 miler
This was my first time shooting a race from start to finish, and I can't say thank you enough to Bill at @rotorhead_30a_running_company for giving me the opportunity! Could not have asked for a more perfect morning out on the trails for this event, I ended up running/hiking over 7 miles trying to get the shot locations! It was definitely weird being on the other side of the camera and not running, but being so familiar with the trail system helped plan things out. Best part of the experience was taking photos of so many of my friends who were out doing what they love! To all of the runners, y'all did phenomenal and I hope you're pleased with the photos. It was a big step for me and I know how important capturing those moments are to a lot of runners. There were almost a thousand photos to go through and edit, hats off to all of the professional race photographers I know - your job is harder than anyone gives you credit for!
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@maascoffee @whittyybabyy

Maas Coffee Roasters ☕️
We took Tallinn to where we "met" (through Instagram!) this morning in FWB. Without that fateful day sitting in this coffee shop when I downloaded the app, we aren't standing here holding our son today! Another crazy twist, Whitney had been in the shop a few months before and helped the barista working set up their Instagram account 👻
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Daddy's home from the Creek!
Walking out of the house the morning I left for Little Creek was the hardest thing I've done in a long time. Even knowing I wouldn't be gone for very long still didn't keep the emotions rising in my chest. To anyone serving and has had to leave home and leave their family, my respect for you is immense. I don't know if I could leave him knowing he wouldn't look the same when I returned. These are joyous days I get to spend with him while he's a newborn, I didn't get to experience these with my daughter. I know what it's like to miss these moments with your children, hats off to those making these sacrifices ⚓️
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From the moment I held him, my life changed. This is my first chance to be a full-time parent of a newborn, and it was a surreal moment leaving the hospital knowing that I was going home to my own house with my wife and children. Every day this week I've gotten to wake up (more like woken up by 😆) and see this tiny human and its like Christmas every day 🎄
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He's still not ready to come into the world. We'll see what happens tomorrow. 🤰
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He's still not ready to come into the world. We'll see what happens tomorrow. 🤰
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This milestone is a unique one. We've had this date circled for nearly 9 months, yet it's now come and gone with no changes. Little Prince, you are officially late! 🤰
📸| @chelseastricklandphoto

Due Date
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This milestone is a unique one. We've had this date circled for nearly 9 months, yet it's now come and gone with no changes. Little Prince, you are officially late! 🤰
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